I'm an 18 year old dude and very attractive, to the point where every girl I talk to goes out of their way to keep the conversation going and compliments my looks. Thing is, I'm a very quiet and reserved guy. I like socializing and am very athletic, but honestly my interests lie towards the intellectual. I'm also very low agreeableness, and so I come across as very rude.

Girls, as you can expect, hate my personality. Before I realized that I needed to be more socially adept to build my business, I didn't look good at all. Long hair, acne, high body fat % (power lifter). Girls never gave me any attention, and would comment on how angry and shy I was.

However, when I started grooming myself I got shit tons of attention from girls and thought "oh, this is nice, they actually like me now."

I lost my virginity to a girl I really liked and tried to form a relationship, and she gave me the cold shoulder. I liked hanging around her without the sex/relationship stuff so I tried to be just friends with her (she asked to just be friends). I would ask to hangout and she would refuse, yet I'd receive phone calls and texts late into the night requesting me to come over to fuck.

It took awhile, but I finally coaxed it out that she was basically just using me because I was hot. Being "just friends" to her was just manipulation to keep me around so she got get sex. She even told me she thought I was weird and boring. I got super angry and started ignoring her and being rude and cold. She would cry and cry and ask what she did. It's as if girls don't realize that no one likes being used. No amount of ego stroking, unless you're super insecure, is going to change that.

I had known about MGTOW long before any of this had happened, and so I had been "Intellectually" red pilled by listening to hours of Stardusk and Bar Bar, however I didn't experience the red pill until the aforementioned events took place. It fucking sucks. I just wish a girl could appreciate a guy for who he is, and not superficial shit like looks, money, or status.