As you can tell by my username, I am a betabucker. To my knowledge and what my gut tells me she's never cheated on me she has however done something else: utter and complete brainwashing.

Now in all other aspects of life I would consider myself pretty alpha. I'm buff, I won't back out of a fight and have the skills to back it up, in every job I ever got I always managed to get some sort of leader position and people respect my authority, I rule by kindness until proven otherwise but won't back down from using "the hammer" if needed. I'm though but but fair. Never ever had any problem picking up girls either, I still flirt and am pretty good at picking up on subtle cues and sexual tension.

So why am I writing this, just to brag? Well, I am NOT the king of my castle I am but a servant. She has so thoroughly brainwashed me that I didn't even see it coming. I'm apologizing for breathing, I'm in debt, I live in an area not of my own choosing all because of her. I was in control in the beginning but slowly and steadily I've become everything I hate, spineless even. I was so in love, so completely in her power that I scuffed and mocked other couples for not having it as "good" as we have.

As of lately I got some distance and was able to see all of this and there is only one conclusion: freedom.

So my plan is that once I dump her, I'm getting a dog (thus the clever title). Having a dog I will have unconditional love (less like to pine for her love), I'm increasing my LISS and I get to practice being a "packleader" and set the frame because you won't see me being pulled by the dog looking like I'm windsurfing. An added bonus will be picking up girls at the park having a cute puppy. I'm getting an amstaff or pitbull not only because they are "alpha" dogs but because they're cheap and they have a strong frame of mind that will help me to challenge them and making me a better "packleader" even in private, I figure. So what do you guys think?