Intro -

I experienced true rage today for the first time since discovering trp. Drew some conclusions I thought may help those who are still swallowing.

Body -

I found out today my truck was hit at my apartment complex last night. No cameras.

I got so angry (I'm working at the wells Fargo championship at quail hollow) I wanted to leave my post and go beat a golf club into the ground until exhaustion.

I remembered in a moment of clarity how angry I used to be in college: newly single, all the guys in my dorm would be out and I'd be in masturbating to julia bond and playing Halo. I used to get so furious when my friends would score. Why wouldn't girls choose me with the good grades and the loving heart and the moral standards and the intellect? Why did they fuck Dan the Douche who couldn't even spell "beginning" and couldn't remember their name and was always skipping class and getting in trouble with the law, and worse the girls would brag about it to me! I would offer to fuck them slow and sensual and love them for who they really were - sweet special snowflakes - and they'd get creeped out and delete me on social media.

There were many sleepless nights I'd stay up enraged, jealous of Dan and Chad and Will and Jake and B the guy who was a drug dealer who no one even knew his real name. I'd shake and toss and turn with anger, unable to sleep pondering the absurdity of it all. I'd be mad for days at a time, walking around with resting bitch face and socializing like a sperg.

Lessons learned -

To those who are younger and unplugging - don't be like me when I was 19-24. Hit the gym. Watch rsd videos. Read nmmg, the sgm and way of the superior man. Overcome the anger not by letting the weight go, but by becoming strong enough to carry it.