long story short, have suffered from depression all my adult life, about 16 years now. I have it reasonably under control. kicked the meds, walking to work, starting to do some lifting etc.

I discovered this site only a month ago and so much of it rings true to me I now consider myself MGTOW. The only trouble is I cant kick my desire for a female companion. It's cutting me up and fucking me up. I couldn't get a woman anyway as I'm average to below average looking, slim build and average job, which these days makes you WORTHLESS to all women. If there was a pill you could take that would eliminate your desire for sex and female companionship, I would take it in a heartbeat (I think millions of men would to be honest). But there isn't, so what do bros? It's not just the sex I crave either, but also the companionship, so prostitutes wont help me.

How can I rid myself of these desires that I cant fulfil? It's like nature has set me up to fail. It's fucking horrible being a below average young man in the modern (feminist) world. To have to deal with these base urges all the time, that can no longer be fulfilled, and also to be told that men have it so much easier by the media all the time.

Help me brothers. I'm not a bad person, but I fear that this is turning me into one. I worry that the taint of this all will rot my brain to a point where there is no coming back from.