I have always had a distrust towards women, not as bad as now, but i would always be weary of them.. i'm a pretty good looking guy, i used to model for companies around my area & would do promotions for nightclubs.. women in serious relationships/married would message me on facebook, it was obvious what they were after.. sometimes i would meet them for casual sex.

Anyways, about 3 years ago.. i met a very, very fucking hot girl on facebook, we clicked straight away.. and ended up pretty much becoming best friends, would talk all day, everyday.. discussing personal, deep things about our lives.. well, she ended up getting engaged to some guy, some guy who pretty much worships her & has spent a lot of time & money on her, helping her start up a little business etc.. Whilst she was engaged to him, she would flirt with me sometimes, usually when she was drunk.. and would send me nudes ( i never asked ) .. she also asked to meet up with me on a few occasions but i was always busy due to work.

Well, earlier this year.. we had a little falling out ( due to her being weird ) and we stopped talking for a few months, then got back in touch.. since we have been back in touch, i have seen her for what she really is.. she's distant with me now, and speaks to loads of other guys, liking their pictures on facebook etc.. putting pictures of herself half naked on etc.. i foolishly tried to win her over when we got back in touch by being really nice & caring, she took advantage of that and now treats me like a second class citizen!.. saying that i act ' desperate ' and so on.. she has also married the guy she got engaged too.

I feel so stupid for investing 3 years of my into her, she is like all other women, especially attractive women.. out for what they can get!.. attention seekers who only really care about themselves & their social image.. well, i have decided from this day on.. that the nice me is dead, i will never respect women again, i see them for what they really are!

From now on, i will go out of my way to give them a taste of their own medicine, lead them on & let them down... i used to always want to get married one day, have kids and so on.. but that isn't going to happen, the thought of being alone is actually comforting now.. atleast i know i can't be taken advantage of again, the ball is now in my court