I'm about to be 22 and have had 2 long term relationships. One adopted girl in 9th grade who I knew was a slut. But I had raging sex drive and wanted to lose my virginity and got in a relationship with her stupidly. I had sex with her all the time but she cheated all the time. She was the definition of soulless. Her reasoning was basically just.. I felt like it. And even now she is just as dull as a 2 by 4.

Skip like 5 years and a bunch of lame meaningless sexual encounters. And I meet this single mother of two in Texas on line. Didn't listen to anyone of how stupid I was. And I was just literally following chemicals in my brain. Well this girl was illl in the head and just used guys since a early age. She had no sensitive bones or nerves. She just couldn't feel compassion yet being a mother acted like she was the sweetest earth child of the land who is all feminine and all nurturing lol. She was the furthest from that. The young and old mothers of today scare me. They are nothing like my mom whose biggest desire at my age was to become a nun and study theology. But not a single girl left is like that.

Anyways. This uncontrollable sexual desire and urge to have a soulless girl of any sort to have to just cling too.. compelled me to also see the way out. I wanted to be a Buddhist monk or a mountain hermit. I loved the way some monks and masters had no fears. And no attachments. If only we could see one of these masters flat out dismiss a women's presence. They saw through the nature entirely of man women desire. They tasted bliss far beyond anything a women could possibly offer. Ever.

All I can say is Mgtow is great. Of all the corruption and ignorance and blind stupidity in the world. There exists.. a whole group of people all over who see through the illusion of blind lust. Every single one of you men are speaking about the true path. The tao. The Buddha's secrets. Just living life completely whole. A true whole man. A holy man.