I've always considered myself a strong man but I was a blue piller, idealistic, naive. I was even a sympathizer with feminism while I was in college. I got laid but was confused that I didnt get the respect I felt I deserved...my shameful response was to try and become more sensitive to understand the subtle emotional needs of women.

After devoting my life to a woman for seven years she left me when I got sick and got laid off...the betrayal ruined my world and I lost my identity. My fiances were fucked. I was on the verge of homelessness I had to go to a mental institution because I was suicidal. Thank God I came to my senses and my health recovered.

I now live alone. I am MGTOW now. In many ways I feel stronger than ever but at the same time I feel empty. I dont know who I am anymore because my whole life was about getting a woman and having a family until recently. I still battle with depression and the mGTow truths are hard to take. MGTOW truth is medicine that gives you your life back but right now I feel alone and life feels meaningless...but at the same time I am physically healthier than ever despite the lack of emotional fulfillment and rewarding relationships in my life.

Looking for advice on how to shift into a new MGTOW identity. Thank you.