I am undateable. It has become clear to me I am not normal, and I’m terribly lonely and depressed.

I can’t seem to let go of the part of me that wants sex and a relationship. A wife and kids someday. As I grow older into my thirties it’s becoming very, very clear to me this isn’t going to happen.

How do I let go and truly go my own way? I can’t seem to find motivation and drive for anything. I sleep too late, I’m underperforming at work, I’m drinking too much, and my default is just sad. I’m just sad.

I see nothing good in myself. I really want to just turn off the awareness that normal people find other people willing to date and love them so easily.

How do you suppress the need for love?