This will be long, but I hope you read it and give me some feedback.

I am an officially diagnozed schizoid. Basically it means a loner and an observor of life, which is what I have been . I am 34 years old and the older I get the more cynical and hateful I am becoming. I have certain theories- this will be offtopic but I want to put it forth.

1.) I have never ever understood patriotism. Not of a specific country but the concept itself. I respect the military(if for no other reason, for their physical prowess and regiment) but I believe that as a rule- by default, a government will be incompetent at best and horrible at worst. All this flag waving, national anthem singing doesn't mean shit. You are the delusional masses.

I am an Indian(from India) and I have always loved the West. I am something of an insitution as far as western culture(arts, history, cinema, literature) is concerned and yet I feel that everything everywhere is fucked up. I was a raging liberal once but now I see liberalism as a mental disorder(I also believe liberalism will destroy west). Now more on this in a moment...

2.) Democracy is a sham. It is a joke that somehow sustained itself in the past but in this day and age of globalization its been found out! If two people will have diverging thoughts and opinion as a rule(meaning not get along), how can two races or religions or ethnicities? I am studying the democratic results of many nations and I find that at any given election the margin is something in the ratio of 55:45 or 48:52. Meaning at any given time half the nation is full of losers. Loser identity breeds contempt. The loser party tries its best to bring down the elected at any given chance....and this goes on daily for 4 years when the next elections happen. Cycle repeat. Heck, I think China with its authorotatian one party government is better at this point!

3.) Religion: My problem with religion isn't what concerns most people- Is there a God? There could be a higher being just as likely there isn't one and we are just atoms. It is a waste of discussion and time for all involved. However- my problem with religion is this- I firmly believe that religion only demands the middle class to be moral. The rules of morality only apply to the sheeple.

All throughout history, in every civilization the most powerful(politics) or the richest have been amoral at best and immoral usually. In every civiization- ancient mesopotamia, egypt. Only the middle class follow the laws, rules and ethics. They live by it. The people in power never do. If they make a mistake the masses get offended/angry and then forget! How many times do you see on forums and Facebook- "Oh, I've lost all respect for him". What do you mean by this "respect"? Think about it- people are fickle minded and unsure of their own principles and ethos.

Now coming back to American elections although I am an avowed anti-liberal I think the conservative party is even a bigger joke. Think about it- How can your believe in a God, in abortion issues, other religious stuff dictate your choices to elect a government? They want certain people coming in- people who believe in their ethos but how the fack does that relate to matters of state and society? Why does a 60 year old patriotic religious American not realize that everything is a sham and a joke? I realized it at 34. If I were an American I'd be a liberatarian.

I feel that to be something, anything in life, one has to only think of themselves- not their people, not their government or nation. If life is a competition and the survival of the fittest laws apply, then one has to be amoral and only think of themselves. I don't even have to tell you how this applies to females. They're by nature herd minded and only go for the finest and best. This is why the adage Nice guys finish last is so true. If one is selfless, caring, living for others he gets nowhere. He becomes a drunkard and dies a sad death. I have seen this with so many men- men of principles who have just given up. Given up on life.

No wonder I always gyrated towards Clint Eastwood and his "man with no name" persona. He lives for himself, and nobody else. If I could restart my life I'd look at Nietsche, Talleyrand, Machiavilli and Napoleon. Not the bullshit I got indoctrined.