Basically, the attraction was dying. Was reading the room. Went about it the wrong way, could’ve not came off butthurt.

Context: long time friends, broke out of the friend zone like 5 months ago. Went over to her place tonight (it’s the norm as I have roommates and she has pets), we drank a lil and entertained each other... starts telling me more stories about work that I don’t care about. Realized that it’s probably another night of “I’m too tired”, so I decided go cold and proceeded to confess that it was a waste of my time and that I wasn’t going to commit. Hits me with the “I’m not seeing anyone” which is totally fine but not my aim.

Anyways, I walk out on her and like an idiot I couldn’t wait more than 30 minutes before calling her to basically say “I don’t know why I’m calling”

Ended with this. Like I said, could’ve come off not butthurt, but I wasn’t too happy the past couple weeks anyways. Why am I posting here? Reassurance would be nice - I’m pretty fuckin raw right now. Not crying raw, but feeling some anxiety.

Lesson learned was to go with your gut. I could’ve fought the good fight and been frustrated for longer I’m sure, but learn to smell when a girl has gotten too comfortable with your presence. On a side note I’ve been sleeping with another girl to make up for the lack of this one, but still the lack bothered me. I even did a power play and beat off right next to her because she wouldn’t give it up.

https://imgur.com/TaWlvW5

Also she blocked me on everything so at least theres no loose ends.