Since discovering the Red Pill three years ago, I am still in a limbo. By limbo, I mean every time I reread these theories and posts, I am fired up to improve. Usually, I go a couple weeks with the "Red Pill" mindset, but I eventually trail off and go back into my old, pathetic behaviors. I am very self-aware and what I just wrote about taking on "The Red Pill mindset for weeks" clearly shows I am still struggling to digest it.

I am aware enough to put this Red Pill in my mouth and swallow, but I can't seem to keep it down and always throw it back up. I find myself back in SQUARE ONE where I reread the same shit on the side bar/posts, get amped up, and my actions aligning to this red pill mindset dies out, leaving me back at scrolling through the homepage of TRP mindlessly.

When I still read the Red Pill, it feels like a fired up mindset. Like I am ready to conquer the world with newfound knowledge. I know this is the WRONG feeling, but rather I should be feeling a sense of content, acceptance of knowledge, and motivated consistency to maintain this Red Pill mindset.

I'm sure many of you have related to this, or still struggling with the push and pull of maintaining this 'frame' or keeping your actions congruent/parallel with the posts and theories you see. How do I stay consistent with the Red Pill mindset? I don't want your creative advice, but rather, your personal account of overcoming this struggle and embracing it with open arms.

This is a field report as many of us can relate to this and we know there is a huge difference between understanding versus APPLYING. I want to consistently apply and build up this mindset rather than treating it as a temporary buff or boost of strength.

I need you all to look back and remember the moment you DIGESTED the pill rather than simply being aware, popping it in your mouth, and swallowing it. I demand your thorough $0.02. Thanks for your time and keep nutting.

21 in June, 5'7, 130lb, 9% bf.