Please before taking this post even a bit seriously,overcome the ego of yours and bear with me as i'm not bragging. My only intention is to contribute to this unique community of like-minded people.

To start off,i was basically the stereotypical kid red-pillers were,overprotective mother and absent father(whom i greatly respect and love for his sacrifices for me). Chubby,never bullied at school but more often than not i was a target for many people,i never intended to harm anyone first,not even those who harassed me,not because of weakness,i realised that after i got developed and blah blah,but because of seeing no point in it. Girls as you can imagine liked(or were just okay with) my presence but i was never special,invited or wanted. My first relationship was at 18 with a girl i tattooed her name with small letters(this got covered up of course,point at me and laugh,ikr).Fast forward to 2020,after she broke up with me in 2016 who was my first sexual partner,i have slept with over 35 girls,even lost count. How did a guy that was basically invisible,aggreeable and weak become Zen?There are many ways this subreddit recommends for building power,most of them are centered around women,why is that?Sleeping with many attractive women is probably the fastest and most efficient way to reach the no-mind,what people are born to chase in their lives,and for women to chase those men,or at least the ones closer to that state. Women are to be included to a reality due to their feminine nature,while men are to create realities,with alphas creating the most "natural" thus nearly ideal ones. Whenever i read red-pill posts,never been an active red-piller,i actually confirm my own actions,thoughts and ways of thinking getting some validation. How do you translate that? While the red-pill is a good place to widen your knowledge and correct some details,you won't achieve anything whatsoever copying or trying to imitate what is discussed here. That has to come out of you naturally,in a very calm way,heck you should even pick yourself everytime you're acting or faking anything. Until now i thought that my ego-death breakthrough dmt trip changed everything and made me a clear headed person without an inner voice and complete free will,but recently i realized that it was just a very powerfull tool to become "armed" with all that knowledge that will make you a jedi lover(really liked that term,saw it on red-pill) . Plus that you will be aware of yourself in a much more consciouss way. Damn,that applies to reality as a whole,too. There is no need to demonize dopamine and say it's the neurotransmitter's fault that people stay on the pc and slam their meat all day. Nor to start hiking,rafting or some extreme sport to "become" or "seem" interesting or push your limits or whatever. Everything you need to reach a natural abundance mindset without trying to is inside you. To be honest,the more you try to get something,whatever it might be,the more it's whole existence will be repelled from you(saying existence because i include both it's physical precense and your ideas about it). If you're a cunning,strong and good-at-it man,you'll surely end up a powerful figure,or at least seemingly powerful. But your power will be limited by human limits. It will tend to reach perfection but will never reach it,which is the transcedental states discussed in many philosophies,cults,religions or whatever gateways to spirituality. As women get shaped by their sexual intercourses,so do men. But nobody ever discusses that why? It's a tricky subject,you can have sex with many women as a fit and successful or whatever guy but the flaw is that even if they are attractive women,the man must form a deeper connection in order for that woman to count in his actual,character-shaping and not degrading(works like with women) experiences.A good portion of your n-counter is just the bucket list. It's random girls that we just slept with,and even those who had a relationship with us were just taking it just a bit deeper,nothing serious. It's when you start to want to seduce her,make her feel at home,water her existence. Those experiences are of much greater value and will help you add up great on achieving natural calmness. LTR for me is a no-no,anything that is of possessive nature will either rot away,or be tolerable at best. You don't have to fake or hide your feelings,you need to have them under control. You don't have to act on anything,or play by the 48 laws of power constantly. Those laws come out of you naturally once you're in the Zen state. Seek,everyday.What you like naturally is a call for further deepening. Search inside of you. The outside is merely an instrument to help you dig inside your consciousness and existence. Julius Evola has good writings on that if anyone's interested. A good book i recommend is Introduction to Magic,i wouldn't recommend that to beginners. Having an abundance mindset is not a trick to be abundant,not having a mindset is an outcome of being abundant,which is an outcome of being abundant. That sounds retarded but your mentality is totally correlated with your reality. It's a "loop" between mentality and reality. For example,humans seek calmness by chasing abundance in reality but they will never reach that because you can never be abundant. Human could have the whole fucking planet and he would still want the nearest one,too. Abundance will come to you once you're calm. When you have no needs,you act in the most natural way possible. Whatever is naturally "connected" to you,like like-minded girls,will come to you,end of story. Even if a girl is a fucking goddess but has nothing in common mentally with you,YOU will be the one to reject her,but if you act that way she wouldn't probably even dare to come close to you. Do whatever it takes to make a big actual N-count. It matters so much but it's so extremely rare that it's not at all talked about,at least in society. It's an alien term to almost everyone. The bucket list is merely the first step,and it takes quite a bit effort to raise it enough to proceed to the actual list. Sleeping with many attractive to you women will make you love yourself,while anything else that is non-human will give you a big ego and vanity. I'm just some random 24 year old dude doing sketchy shit,no car,no job,dropped out of college,have lots of tattoos but not too extreme,and even old ladies treat me politely. Search inside you,be aware of the ego,do some modifications to your reality no matter how hard they are and thigs will come naturally to you. Sorry for the post my stimulated fellows would expect to read,i'm a perceiver and being organized is a bit tormenting to me,so bear with it. Would really like to hear your thoughts and do some constructive dialogue,i'm writing this because i think i can drop some insights to you and maybe you can do that to me.