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Reasons why i left you

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I am compiling this list so that i feel less horrible about leaving him.

-you made me do things i was uncomfortable doing

-you saw me in pain and just watched

-you made all of my problems about you

-your insecurities were affecting me

-you made me stop wearing makeup around you because me looking too beautiful made you insecure

-every time we hung out it lead to us fucking. That's it.

-ive broken so many promises that i made to myself for you

-you always had control over the aux cord no matter where we were, and i always had to suffer through your shitty 2000s emo music

-any time i tried to show you something new, it was met with criticism

-you acted like i was stupid around your friends and never tried to defend me or my beliefs

-your lack of motivation to do interesting things in this world is the biggest turn off ive ever fucking had

-i gave you something special, my virginity and my trust, and you repeatedly abused that.

-you made it really difficult to have friends or my own social life because you were jealous of my friends

-you would abuse the fact that i cared about you to manipulate me into staying with you

-while i tried to form fitness goals and improve on my body, you told me that you didn't want to even try.

-you didn't want me to get any piercings or dye my hair for some reason, even though you knew i was excited about this

-i was always on top and you made me cum ONCE in two years.

-you never wanted to do anything fun with me, we stopped going on dates after the first 6 months

-i did things i didn't want to do to make you happy and i feel violated and disgusting.

I know this relationship was unhealthy for both of us. I know i also did some awful things to you. But i wasted 2 years of my life and now it's over. I tried to make it work. Im sorry. I can't waste any more of my youth with you, i need to be free and healthy and with someone who will take care of me and nurture me instead of being a glorified fuckbuddy with emotional issues. I hung on for two years waiting for it to get better. I sacrificed so much for you. I really loved you. Im sorry that this is how it has to be.

I'm not just a pretty picture on the wall.

Thank u for reading my rant.

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