first of all, im not 100% FDS committed, philosophically speaking. just to clarify. I like to see posts from here on my home page so i can chip away at my bad dating habits. I have been thinking a lot recently and would like to share some of my experiences with you all. I apologize if this is jumping all over the place, also sorry for grammar mistakes, im on mobile and also must maintain the aesthetic.

I have been seeing a guy since august of last year. im crazy about him. he’s 1.5yrs younger than me, which is not part of my MO (I actually have dated a lot of way older guys, but that’s a whole other can of worms). and crazy smart. woke in mostly the right ways. STUPID hot. great at sex. but he wouldn’t commit after like a month of casually seeing one another, he said he was too busy with school, which I know is true to an extent but I also knew he wanted to sleep with other people. I have let him string me along for almost 10 months. he is moving across the country in a few weeks, which I knew was going to happen essentially from the beginning, but it’s still kinda heartbreaking. so im not his gf, im not allowed to be crazy.

but last night, he did something that really upset me. I asked him if I could have some of his fruit in animal crossing, because his island has everything & mine is only a few weeks old. he knows I am obsessed with animal crossing, even from before the new game came out. he said yes and I invited him to my island. I dressed up my character in her best clothes, bought him a gift at the shop and wrapped it in wrapping paper. he came to my island, ran to the town square, dropped his fruit, and then hauled ass back to the airport to end the meeting. I knew he wasn’t going to stick around for more than a few minutes, but he didn’t stay for one extra second. I texted him to thank him for the fruit, & I said I had a gift but he left it. he said, “im in quasi finals mode so I’m really busy.”

look. I don’t expect him to prioritize me over his finals, that would be insane. but it feels like he’s humoring me. it feels like he did that so I would leave him alone. I feel like that with a lot of guys, like im being humored or even just tolerated (bad past relationships, an assault, daddy issues, etc). I wish he would have just told me that he doesn’t have time right now bc of studying for finals. I was so upset by this very minor thing he did, he’s not even my boyfriend, it’s crazy of me to have been so sad about something so small.

sorry this got so long. I feel like such an idiot. I feel like im asking for way too much when it comes to things like this, but is it really so much to ask someone to spend 5 minutes on your animal crossing island with you? I really don’t know if im being crazy.