I'm in college I'm a fat guy and I've had multiple times to lose it from different girls, I know guys and bc of them I know girls let's just say there loose. Thing is though I want to fuck a girl bc I actually got her not bc some hand me down(to much pride maybe) the way I see it. I've tried multiple times to fuck girls I've picked out, let's say it hasn't worked out. Should I just get this over with or just keep at it. I'm starting to get self conscious about it bc my friend's keep asking questions.

I know I'm fat that's not the question my god, your all thinking I'm some naive little kid who believes he's entitled to pussy I'm asking you guys for a opinion as I'm trying to lose weight and better myself bc that's what trp teaches otherwise I wouldn't be here should I say fuck it and just fuck the girls or actually wait and try to earn it that's my problem I don't want to handed shit I actually want to earn it but at same time does it really matter bc pussy is just pussy right?