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I know this isn't about guys, but I have recently been ghosted by a friend of like 7 years for no reason and yesterday I got stood up. I'm upset because I was already almost there when she messaged as I live half an hour away and wasn't driving over but caught public transport. I wouldn't be so upset if she told me at least an hour earlier so I could do other stuff instead of wasting my morning and money going there to meet her. I didn't want to waste my afternoon either so I said no and just told her to contact me when she's free (not expecting a response back). I met this girl while travelling and we met up while I was in her city. Now she moved to my city from another city and I was trying to remain friends and support her/show her around. This was my last attempt at friendship.

My other friend also just randomly disappeared, I tried to make plans which she bailed on (with a good time frame at least) but then just stopped talking to me or making any plans. All the while going on a trip with a guy. She's in the navy and away for a few years so I'm not so upset. But I just stopped bothering as I'm worth more and don't accept this bullshit. It was my birthday last week and she didn't even bother to message or post on my fb wall.

Another friend of 4 years chose her car over me and was so materialistic during the aftermath of a car accident in her car while I was house sitting her cat and house for free (yeah I was such a fool and pick me). Even though I did everything right and paid her the money so she could get a new car, dealt with it all etc with a broken arm and injured knee from the accident. Even my then HVM boyfriend of 3 months looked after me and helped me out so much. Compared to my LVF pick me friend that cared so much about her car. I know I'm in the wrong as I did have an accident, but it was never intentional or out of any malice and I did apologise and deal with it.

Idk what I'm trying to accomplish with this post, I'm just so over friends. I'm trying to focus on me, do crafts, gym and other hobbies. My boyfriend of course is supporting me and encouraging me to go to events, have hobbies and meet people etc. Helping me get to the train stations etc as I don't drive much due to PTSD from the accident. I'm not chasing or being a pick me for guys or girls any more I'm done with that life.