I have been making threads about this little LTR problem I've been having for days now. One part of the red pill that I cannot fully swallow is that love doesn't exist. I have ran through nearly 200 chicks in my life, I've lived in abundance and enjoyed in thoroughly. I know what I'm doing with women. But every now and then, I'll meet one who just blows my socks off. And thats usually when all that goes out the window - with her only.

Every post I make, everyone is telling me how she is fucking other dudes, I should have abundance, ect. First of all, she's not. She allowed me to look through her phone. She was talking to other dudes who were cringe as fuck and definitely not capable of even making a move. It was sad honestly and she knew it. She was letting them take her on dates literally cause she was bored. She also looked through my phone and saw 3 different women asking me to come over because they needed dick - from the last week. She knows I have abundance. This night ended up with us fucking and becoming exclusive the next day.

Problem is, I got too invested, went beta on her badly, and she blocked me off everything. For 2 weeks I played it cool and wished her a happy thanksgiving. She ends up unblocking me, we have a great date on wednesday. But here is the issue: she is too scared to fully dive into me again yet. She has still been seeing her betas. She is shittesting me constantly, and ive been passing. It is a very weird situation to be in, where I basically had to grovel to her for forgiveness and am now trying to put her back in my frame. But she is a very outgoing, independent woman. She really is an alpha female, not the type to be put in anyones frame at all. Im just tired of asking for advice about this and being told the same old - she's fucking the dudes, I need abundance - she's not, and I have it. She knows it, doesn't even ask about it. I just actually like this girl and want to make things work, and I'm not sure how to proceed.