I was fat in high school. I was a class clown. It wasn't bad. I had friends, but I was a bitch. I was also not taking school seriously at all I hated it.

As a senior I was just getting tired of social media and everything because everything kept getting worse and worse. I deleted a ton of people from snapchat. Many of these people were distant friends or even pretty close.

Now I am literally the best I have ever been in my life. I've lost 50 pounds, been working out, and am going to a pretty good university. I am no where near where I want to be but I'm not a bitch anymore and guys respect me. I am now respected in my HS group of friends.

I come back for break and now I am bored as fuck. Sure I can hang out with them all day and their girlfriends, but I wanna fuck or at least get some sort of fling going for break, but I deleted a ton of fucking girls from snap and unfollowed them on Instagram! I have like no way of talking to these girls and I think they might think I hate them when I really don't. At these parties my friends have we don't even have the usual girls coming anymore, just a few GFs. Idk if the girls just don't want to come, if they weren't invited, or if me removing them has anything to do with them not wanting to come.

Ive had a GF of my friend ask why I deleted her and she was salty, even when I said I deleted most people. Now I don't know why I did this, I was going a little crazy at the time and I didn't know my place.

Should I just like deal with the backlash of this situation and just give up on my town during break? Very small town, ~2,600 people, ~300 kids in high school. Everybody knows everybody.

Im high school I was honestly a complete pussy. I am 6'3" and I was a little bitch I never worked out and only played video games. I had a bad attitude etc. Is there a way to get past that so the girls don't remember it or is all hope lost? I don't want to sound like a douchebag but my face is pretty attractive. A good friend of mines GF told me her mom thought I was cute. I've never talked to her mom in my life it was just a really random comment.

I don't know if I will be here during the summertime, so I don't plan on having a real relationship, but solely just for not being bored.