I really have a bit of hatred towards my brother and some my childhood friends. The fact that I've experienced closely, like becoming a joke because your anger bursts out when somebody says something which seems really beta when seeing with audience eyes. My brother does things and some of those things and jokes really makes me mad, this is same when im with my childhood friends.

The problem here is that its really difficult for me in those situation to control the anger, sometimes i don't say anything to prevent coming off as a butt hurt and lose the frame, but other times man i just burst out. Sometimes i really feel bad that it happens to me in front of close friends and family.

How can i prevent this from happening and losing my frame in front of them, because i can clearly see that they can me losing it out and that expression on their face that i can't keep cool in that situation.