Currently in college, sophomore year. In terms of making friends or getting girls, I have this neediness impeded in me subconsciously that makes me always show off too hard. I didnt have lots of friends growing up(still struggling with this but I have no problem meeting new ones) and been put off in countless friend groups before I discovered RP. Because of this im always doing and posting weird shit on social media trying to look cool and I give off the weird vibe in person. I always laugh at everyones jokes even though they’re not that funny. I try to meditate and it only helps when im alone chilling in my room. I turn into sensitive soyboi when someone looks at me with an ugly face or in a confrontational situation. Im always doing shit trying to act cool. Its an annoying postion to be in because I want it to come off naturally. Im on my purpose but get distracted and cant focus because of this constant neediness. Im starting to get back to lifting weights and losing fat. Ever since Ive been incorporating RP its gotten better but that lingering feeling is still there. And ill bravely admit im still somewhat a little bitch. Is this feeling normal human emotion or should I get rid of it? How do I be chill and just live life? Do I just continue on my purpose and it will solve itself out? Any advice is appreciated. Don’t sugarcoat please, I need the truth and the coldest fucking advice.