I was getting drunk with my 2 brothers when we started debating and drunk arguing about usual bullshit that drunk guys argue about. Somewhere in it I just lost my shit and went off. I said things I didn’t mean and so did he. When I think back to the situation I totally overreacted and I don’t know if it was bc I was drunk because I drink a lot and I’ve never lost my shit like that. I’m thinking from now on maybe I should just keep it at its highest minimum and be responsible with my drinking, but something inside just tells me I need to put that shit down and stay away from it. Today I confronted him and apologized and he was understanding, and forgave me, but I can tell he was hurt by the shit I said. It’s been almost a week and I just feel guilty and like a piece of shit. He’s older than me. Should I do or buy something to make it up to him? How do I stop feeling like shit.