So i was with a girl for 2 yrs, broken up for 6 months, she went behind my back so i dumped her. Anyways, she worshipped me 18months into our relationship, she did ANYTHING and i mean anything just to get appreciation and Love.

I lost interest because of that after 12 months and i became very boring and also denied sex, she offered anal, bj if i didnt want to. But i just didnt feel it because of my lost attraction due to her neediness.

It all changed in one day and she became cold and distant and instead of pulling back i did the famous mistake by pursuing... my interest for her reignited since she wasn’t needy anymore which led to her gaining full control over the relationship.

So when she went behind my back it really hyrt my ego, but when i had control my mindset were ”i dont give a shit What she does as long as she tells me”.

Now the question, shouldn’t i be happy? I was bored for a year in the relationship and was just stringing along cause why not. And then when it all came Down i got bluepill thoughts like ”i took her for granted, that’s why she went behind my Back” and i still got those thoughts. I still doubt myself and now all of a sudden it feels like I lost something. She did a fucking Uno reverse, from her being horny and all over me to the other way around.

How do i move on from this pathetic and weak mindset, need som help from fellow bros.

Sorry for the long post