I've always tried to help people. I paid the price. I am 34 living at home. My mom has early dementia. She has me here because her live in boyfriend would scream at her daily for not doing anything and the house worth about 200,000k , would be destroyed if i did not keep it up.

i need out. i am thinking about suicide every second even though i wont do it. i know how hard it is to actually work.

she admits to owning me a used car. shes playing a game that she will take me to my job first before she buys it but she can not even get out of bed.

i do not know what to do. I live on a large hill and burned every single bridge around me. I would get a job, get screamed at until i broke down. repeat for 15 years.

if you met me you would not believe this is my situation. i have a strong presence.

i have no skills other than dishwashing. i am lost i need help. i'd help you if i could.