Before discovering trp i opened up to this girl who i found to be better than most girls. Conversation flow, down to earth, etc but showed emotional weakness and a lot of it bc she was doing it too. I got comfortable lost frame and forgot how bad loneliness is. Anyways I just look back and get this sad nostalgia bc it felt good being together. I sometimes want to ask her to hangout or something on ig after she ghosted me but i know that will drive her away.

It's bad bc I'm a picky dude with very little options. I'll be sitting there at my job and think about it like a little bitch then get home feeling like shit think about texting her....rinse repeat. I'm 20 yrs old and am still saving for a vehicle but fuck its so depressing. I am prone to oneitis but when talking to a girl I get this burst of willpower to socialize and improve or do shit properly. I'm kinda screwed it messes with me but if i stop trying things will only get much worse.

I guess this is typical but is the only thing to do just suck it up cut my losses and move on?