Background I am a 37 year old professional making USD350k a year (with annual increments) in a stable job and gym regularly.

1)Currently married, I have a 5year old and a wife of 6 years. Met the girl of my dreams 3 years ago (I was on less than half my pay and had a lesser job, didn't gym) On and off relationship with her, never a beta buck despite her demands , alpha fuck most of the way. I do love her and vice versa. She helped me be the person that I am now, be it fitness or professionally. She definately had a hand in it and that is why my feelings for her is beyond skin deep. Despite that, until such point that we are together, it was conditional love in the sense that she's still my mistress and she is loyal to an acceptible level given the circumstances. I understand her needs to have some guy friends around

2)I do want to marry her as she meets most if not all of my criterias; grooming, looks, effort in bed, cooking skills and femininity, all exceeding my wife's level. She loves me to the extent that I will divorce, provide sufficiently for her, a home for us, a car to drive, money to support her reasonably inexpensive lifestyle and give her a family at a later stage once we are together

3)Fast forward 2.5 years into my affair/relationship she's telling me no more sex until I am seperated from the wife to mitigate the risk of pregnancy. "Honey if you get pregnant I'll marry you, you know that !" She's like how?! You're not even divorced yet". Wife knows of her existence so does family member I am not scared to spill it, divorce I'll just pay up and move on

4)Since then mistress been giving me a shitty attitude and demanding more of my time like calling up my work place, insisting to have chats during impossible times and being impatient as fuck. Our previously nice conversations turn into "Do you have a plan, what is it ? I don't want to talk about anything or tell you about my day, I just want to talk about our plan!" I say as always, be patient alittle bit longer, you know I want to be together when the time is right and I meant it. Apparently she can't work off my schedule anymore and she need to work off her own, maybe there's competition out there and other alphas or betas are hot on her tail. She told me she is selectively meeting doctors/lawyers and businessman (those that can afford luxury cars). We broke it off here and there, she's probably dating 2-3 guys at once, that's my guess

5)Fast forward 6 months and she's like "I want a kid and I want it soon, if you didn't have an existing kid we may not need to have a kid or have one asap but since you do the only way I can spend more time with you and be a higher priority is that I too have a kid! I flat out said no and told her her rationale behind this idea is shitty and vindictive. We split for good and she's dating again. She's approaching 30 smart girl !!! Too smart for her own good as I just needed to a) have some stability untill I get my promotion which would allow me more flexibility at work to deal with a divorce, b) allow my kid to finish kindergarten and actually get into a nice private school (the school needs to interview the parents and I want to remain married during the selection process)

Both a) and b) accomplished. If she wasn't so impatient our/my plan could be executed but since her temper tantrums and black mailing-ish behaviour got the best of her and ticked me off (and now I question our fit going forward in a committed relationship) nothing is happening.

I still find her to be a good person and a typical girl that is trying to maximise her valuable qualities/assets. I genuinely wanted to do the right thing post this ordeal by everybody despite my very specific timeline. As a guy I understand that women want $ to alleviate their anxieties in life, just like guys want good sex to destress. Maybe she's fucked a few guys that can provide for her long term since then to get them hooked, who knows. I do love her and find her to be a good companion/lover/enjoyable to be with. How do you guys read this? Should I entertain the thought of getting back wih her again?