I find myself getting angry at AWALT still. I then cope poorly with the anger.

I am 48. Lately this 7 with a live in BF who I know has been pouring on the flirting to the point where she's indicating she wants to branch swing. Came up behind me at a bar and told me I was bewitching her and driving her crazy.

I don't know why but I find myself angry about it. And when I have anger at women I really get down and feel shitty for days, mainly because I have thought patterns from emotional abuse as a kid where I just swallow the anger because back then I was getting yelled at all the time by my BPD mom.

How do I let this go?

Also, this anger gets in the way of me dealing with other women. I get disgusted and wary of them. Then I don't move forward with them.

Any ideas on how to deal with this?