I am confused what I want. I have a good friends, a good family support system, my job is alright, not my favorite... but something is missing. There are times where I think I want a relationship, and then there are times where I love talking to my friends who are girls and flirting with them with no repercussions. I don’t intend on hooking up with my girlfriends but i think I just like the attention. I was in a long term relationship for 4 years and broke it off a year ago, and I’ve dated 2 girls(going to call them girl #1 and #2) for a few months. Nothing was popping out with “I have to be with this person”, so I made the conscious decision to end things before it got too far. But lately I’ve been lonely. And I miss having someone to talk to about things like this. I met back up with girl #1 for a drink or two this weekend, she and I had a good relationship, but she was not the person I wanted to be with at the time. I’ve started to think about her more though, which prompted me grabbing drinks with her. She knows me more than anyone else I’ve dated in the last year, which is comforting to me. Girl #2, we decided to take a bit of a break from seeing each other so I could think about what I wanted. She’s moving back home soon and both girls are sweet, but I made the decisions to be not with them because I didn’t think they were the one. But now i think I don’t know what I want. I’m stuck between wanting to be single and wait for the “perfect girl” for me and being lonely and wanting someone to be there to share moments with and have a connection with. I know I need to focus on myself right now but I wanted to get these thoughts out and see what other people thought. I know I can’t be happy with someone else if I’m not happy with myself which is why this is so hard right now. It’s hard being lonely where you’re surrounded by people who do care about you. It doesn’t make sense honestly.