Basically, I feel exhausted asf from the grind, you know? Apathy building up and so on. I cannot think of many "based" places outside of the internet. If want to do stuff outside, I have to wear a figurative normie mask. I want to be a human being and talk to others but again, I know I will realistically be judged if I say something off key. I feel that in real life, they treat every word you say as if you are being taken to court to testify/defend.

Plus, getting help is like a box exercise: you've got to fit all or none. As for hobbies, that's difficult to do atm. Once I get going, I want to go to the gym on a regular basis because what else is a man supposed to do, right? It would be easier to find help if I didn't have to worry so much about backlash and PC woke cultists on my ass.

I don't want to be alone but otherwise I would be surrounded by potential enemies down the line lol. I am just tired of the whole shit tbh. Ironically, it is depressing that the only way to be with others is to fake being happy.