Feels like something's missing and as much as I want to ignore it and just carry on, focus on what's in front of me, all I can think about is how lonely on the inside I feel, like all the great "happy birthday" wishes are just background noise, numbing the real pain but just for a slight minute.

Something's missing and I just can't figure out what!

maybe it's love? I don't know, I'll appreciate your kind words so much!