i met this girl about a year ago while i was still blue pilled. in the process of getting to know her i got red pilled (not related to her). after about 2 months out of nowhere she was gone. then in november she hit me up again and with my red pill knowledge i knew what i had to do and we kept it casual. then i broke off contact as soon as i had some feelings for her again in april. in may she hit me up to ask me if i was alright etc and we had a convo. since then i have not heard from her nor texted her in the mean time. but since i know her, i fell so hard in love like i never did before and i am still utterly in love with her even though i had several other casual relationships since last summer. i just don't know guys. i have a very fulfilling life right now, it's just a bit lonely because of covid. every damn second of the day (and even at night i dream of her all the time) i think of her.

if somebody could help, i would appreciate that very much