Is it possible to find a mentor here? I am recently divorced, and am doing ok, but I think I am going too much toward having all the (alone) fun now. I am (was) pretty smart, and I believe I could do anything I want. Heck I even had a semi-successful small business (I am not going there anymore either. Wasn't a total loss, but lesson learnt is that in the end, only the government wins.)
Even though I have a good career going so far, I know I am just dragging it now. Being an immigrant, I don't even feel I could ever be welcome in this country (It is Canada, but US is the same I presume if not worst.)
Overall, even though I am content and satisfied, I know I have all the symptoms of depression. I am essentially eating off the fat I have accumulated in the past, and don't even care how long it can last (Maybe, it lasts a lifetime!). I am kinda looking forward to early retirement, but I know it is burning bridges. I have made thousands of music (mostly piano, classic, techno), that I don't feel like finishing but for what, for whom? (I can get enough enjoyment from unfinished work by myself, I can imagine the finished version anyway. The only reason for finishing would be to present to others.) Paintings, but for what? Money, but for what? I understand that if I try harder, I can have it even better for myself, but honestly, I don't feel like it is worth the hard work that may not lead to anything.
As I said, I am maxing out the fun and hobbies I could do, and it is all good, but I am not even remotely near to my full potential because I do not feel welcomed in any part of the society. Not being at full potential feels like wasting myself.
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