My story goes like this. After i finished 12 classes of school in 2009, i felt like nothing else matters. I struggled through the years and now i am experiencing the following: i am an electrical engineering student and i gotta learn a lot, but i dont want to. I feel like all this is boring and has no meaning. The thing is, that if i quit the studies and go get a job, i dont know that will go on and what are the perspectives in that path. While i do know, that if i continue my studies, i graduate with a good grade, i will find a good job, i will be earning good money and i will start living better and better. I will find joy in life and love myself and life itself. And despite me, knowing that, i still refuse to change, to evolve... It is like my existence tries to cancel itself. Every day that goes by and nothing changes, a feeling like a dark cloud is coming to rain whatever it is going to rain and i dont know what will be... depression? crime? death?

I've looked into it and what am going through is called "existential nihilism", it is where life has no meaning, nor value. But deep inside i feel and i know that it is not true, but my actions just prove that am on the way of self-destruction. All i do is chill, eat and sleep. Funny, how no matter how long i chill and relax, i still experience great anxiety and stress. Maybe something subconsciously is telling me that i am on no good path...

This whole thing has nothing to do with my looks, nor women. I cannot think of women when i cannot feel like it is worth living anymore. And thus said, i am not even wanting to kill myself, i am lazy as fuck. I dont wanna live a proper life and i dont want to die. I cannot explain it

Is there anybody else with similar situation? How do you deal with it, and are you dealing with it at all?