My hole childhood has been this

"Don't hit your little sister"

"Don't play with that girl hair"

"Don't grab that girl ass"

"Don't hug for that long"

Now I've realize it was always old woman who said this. And most of the time girls even dare me to touch them but the old' voice resonated in my head.

Worst is when my dad left to the USA, I was practically been raised by a nannies since I only saw my mother a couple of hours a day. On top of that, she used to hit me when I did wrong. She asked what happened to me. Teachers used to call her and tell her I didn't stop talking in class. That I used to be a very outgoing child, and now I even speak.

I think that's where my vaginophobia came from. It stress me that I have to push myself to touch a girl, or that I get uncomfortable if they touch me.

I actually don't have a question. I now what I need to do. Maybe some time tip to do it faster . this is here because I didn't feel this main sub worthy, but I needed to write it nonetheless.