If being alpha is elevating your game so that the women you deal with either have their shit or get their shit together, is it wrong to put a woman on a pedestal in the effort of elevating your game to be able to win that woman and mold her? Is that some back handed beta shit or is it proper transmutation of sexual energy? I find that I'm coming out of a bit of a rough patch, things are starting to look up but I find I have more work i need to do on myself. I work with this chick but because we work together I won't go there with her. I've known from day one she's been ready to do whatever but I've been slowly chipping away at that because A.) Still working on me, not liking the distraction B.) We work together and I don't need people in my business but.....in the realm of spectacle it would make for a nice buzz (What I do would be considered factory work, lots of bored people working lots of overtime, not really the club scene but some fuckable chicks and some older ones whose day could be brightened by the thought of the possibility.) It's to the point where this environment has to be gaming ground as I'm working on transitioning out of it. So why not back her off but leave her wanting because when it's all said and done......we'll be fucking but I need her to spread the legend and we're not talking about the training part....straight to the battles won. I can feel that she almost hates me but can't bring herself to because I keep progressing. But I keep focusing on progressing because fucking her is a goal. But it's not like I'm working on me to fuck her but more I'm working on me so that when I do fuck her she understands the privilege she's being given and I can use that to my advantage to "walk down and fuck them all". Am I wrong in this line of thinking? It kinda feels beta to cast her in this light like she's truly something special but I'm planning on leaving that place to do greater things and feel that life is telling me I should be perfecting game here since, at this point in my life it is the court of opinion, and seems like the perfect place to practice laws of power and seduction. Is this the purpose for oneitis and pedestals or am I trying to justify some beta shit??