I did fine for 4 days or so and was trying to turn my life around but then drank heavily and partied for 15 hours straight.

Went to random houses with ppl i met at the club. Drank like a raging alcoholic with no boundaries, smoked 2 packs of cigarettes. Could've died or been robbed or raped but i didnt care. Had a hangover for 2 straight days. I feel very depressed again and have let all the progress go. Loathe myself.