So i've been seeing this girl for about 2-3 dates now and tonight we went out again. After a few drinks and some dinner at a bar we started walking towards the park. There we got into a heavy make out section and I started noticing this troubled look on her face. I asked her what's up? She told me she had something very serious to tell me, something that was very urgent and needed to be said if we were going to move forward. I asked her what it was and she told me that she has an STD (which STD doesn't matter).

She started telling me how difficult it has been for her to be intimate with other guys due to being psychologically damaged by her STD. I'm just sitting here listening, wondering what the fuck, why me? I just smirked and helped her calm down, afterwards we started making out again. Then things got hot and heavy and I said, "I want to have sex with you" (I had condoms on me), she agreed. I told her I can get a place downtown, she can call out of work, and we could have some fun tonight. I basically gave her an ultimatum, it's either yes or no. She said, "I would of said yes, but not tonight". I said, "Ok so that's a no lets go home".

That was the longest, most awkward, blood boiling walk home ever. We're both quiet, not a peep, she suspects i'm mad at her, and I just keep saying, "I'm not mad, everything is ok. I'm just tired it's been a long day" while laying a out a smirk. Once we finally got to the train station we said our goodbyes. She had a distraught look on her face and her voice was super low. I gave her a hug (no kiss) and told her to get home safe.

I feel so much hatred for myself right now. This is what I attract? Fucking blind STD reddened bitches (she has really bad eye sight due to a childhood condition)? Mind you, she's actually pretty and appears to take good care of herself. I saw pictures of her from 2 years back and she's lost so much weight.

But now i'm annoyed, I'm not calling this bitch back ever. I'm just going to let it be and move on. But I really liked her, whatever man...Fuck bitches.