Hello Red Pill Ladies!

First of all, I would like to say that I love this sub! Your advice is always great and it's really nice to find women who actually put effort in their relationships and understanding men instead of blaming them for everything lol. Keep up the good work! :)

That being said, I need some advice. I'm a 19 yo girl (turning 20 in September) and I recently broke up with my first boyfriend because I felt like I have "fallen out of love with him". We were in an LDR for almost 7 months and after approximately 5 months I started feeling like I didn't love him anymore. If I wasn't RP aware I wouldn't blame myself for breaking up with him because I would just tell myself that "it's not my fault that I have fallen out of love with him", "you can't force yourself to love someone no matter how good they are" and stuff like that. However, I'm RP aware and I know that I feel like I have fallen out of love with him because I lost attraction to him and I lost attraction to him because he was too Beta and Blue Pill for me. This makes my feel like an entitled bitch (and I'm very dissapointed with myself) because I've read a lot of RPW and Laura Doyle stuff and I know that if I have put more effort in the relationship (by being more RPW, feminine and submissive) then maybe he would become more RP, dominant, confident and Alpha and eventually I would be more attracted to him and maybe I would start thinking that I love him anyway. However, tbh, it didn't seem to be worth all the effort because I tried to be as RPW as possible throughout most of the relationship (except for the last month when I didn't feel like trying anymore) by being nice, dressing in a feminine way, making gifts, giving BJs, being submissive and baking cookies/cupcakes for him and yet he still seemed quite Beta and BP to me. He is a great guy: very intelligent, creative, nice, committed, repsects me. He seemed a bit insecure and it sometimes seemed like he had low self-estem and was less positive than me (he worried about more things than me and I didn't like it because I believe in Law of Attraction and the power of positive thoughts but maybe he was just more responsible than me and I should consider it a good trait). And I wasn't very physically attracted to him from the beginning (though I obviously didn't consider him ugly either, just average-looking) but it didn't matter so much because I don't care that much about looks (of course it's nice to have a handsome boyfriend but I care more about intelligence and confidence). However, overall he was a great guy and treated me really well. So I feel very bad about breaking up with him and I was considering getting back to him because I know he's very hurt and he told me lately that he still loves me and misses me. However, I'm still not attracted to him and I would rather be with someone I would consider attractive. If I got back to him I would also have to continue the LDR and that's not really something I want as I have experienced that LDRs are very hard to maintain. But I still feel very sorry for him and guilty for breaking up with him so I'm wondering if I should get back to him anyway. Maybe it would work out if I told him that I wish he was more dominant? To be honest, I feel like I have failed as an RPW.

So should I get back to him or not? And is there any way to make him feel less hurt about the fact that I broke up with him?

Thanks in advance (and sorry for my English, it's not my first language)! :)