I went out clubbing with a girl from last semester - she's older than me by 4 years which I kind of enjoyed. We stayed out all night and wound up at a friend's place.

We smoked weed and some hookah then our tension finally broke and we starting foreplaying - we started making out a little before going to out to breakfast and back to our cars.

I already feel my frame breaking and getting oneitisishness. I did sort of like her the entire semester and her body is much nicer than I anticipated. I texted her a few times some beta shit which I'm regretting although she's either ignoring me or sleeping so it doesn't matter much.

My thoughts are fuck it don't let this one girl get under my skin especially considering that it was my first go at it after my monk mode stage. I feel I should just find someone else to go to the club with tonight and dance and that will help solve my frame/oneitis problem.

I'm at a crossroads right now and I need to stay on the right path. Please guide me oh wise ones.