I quite clearly suffer from oneitis and have idolized this girl for almost a decade now.Currently in a relationship with her for 5 months almost (although it's ridiculous to call it relationship) but she quite clearly doesn't want have sex.

I go to he place twice a week ,but whenever I tried to put moves on her she would back away.We would kiss when I arrive , and when I leave ,but nothing more happens. We did made out more at one occasion,but when I started to undress her she felt 'sick from all the Jäger' we had that night.She was so sorry and all.Bullshit! She also told me she is a virgin,few days back.Ehm,she is 30!!??She broke the 'rule of 2's' long time ago,as well.

Although I know this is absolute crap and most of you would be gone by now ,do you think I should give it one more try or should I just give back some stuff of hers ,that are currently with me,and just break up with her ?

Cant lie ,the prospect of not having her in my life tears me apart,but then again 'having' her like this is actually more toxic.Cant bear the prospect of seeing her with someone else,and I know that's a classic blue pill mentality .