I used to have a social life, parties every weekend, fucked 41 girls. I owe alot of this to my good looks and the efforts of my social savvy extroverted friends. I graduated college with a worthless degree and have been underemployed since. The shame of my existence has made me feel inferior and unconfident. This is compounded by the fact that I've never been assertive in my social life. I always relied on my friends to create social opportunities (more on that later)

I had an LTR from 2014-2016, but i started to realize, in my current state, that i was just waiting to be cucked. I pre-emptively dumped her and then cucked her with a hotter girl for a sense of finality. She then moved in weeks after with a mutual friend AMOG who i've never gotten along with. They had parties and generated a lot of social value. I wasn't allowed over there for obvious reasons.

For the past 6 months, I've basically been a shut-in. I've had sex a hand full of times this year. I've gotten progressively more depressed, my social skills have atrophied, and I work a shitty FT 16/hr job, trying to pay off my student loans as rapidly as possible.I deleted my fb yet still obsess over how my old friends are doing.

I'm contemplating if I should just save up my money and move somewhere else. I feel like my social life here cannot be salvaged. However, this won't solve my social issues. I relate alot to the symptoms of avoidant personality disorder. Whether i truly have it or not doesn't matter because there's no "cure."

That being said, what should I do? I obviously want to make more money, get into a position with dignity, and create my OWN social world that isn't a product of riding my friend's coattails.