I'm bored out of my mind, I want to get a few drinks, do some thot patrol. I haven't really dealt with people in a while. Aside from going to the gym and sitting at the park in the sun to tan, I haven't really gotten out much. I've sort of fallen away from my social circle. I had a lot of personal shit go down, car accident, job fucked me, failing health of a parent, the list goes on. Don't get me wrong, I've done some magical shit on my own, but I'm worried about getting bogged down in "thoughts," and the jagged cliff of "what am I doing here?" I want to keep a clear mind and enjoy the moment, preferably without a fuckton of alcohol. Easier said than done. I know I can be very social, but if I feel that wall of tension go up, I will get psyched out. It's happened before, shit feeling driving home at 2am over a night wasted drinking low tier beer at 2x premium because you didn't feel like you could talk to anyone.

Have any voodoo to share on dealing with this?