Your local 20-year-old autist beginning to wake up.

A couple of months ago, a friend introduced me to this girl who thought I was hot. She was super into me. I suck at holding a conversation but on our first date we were in the coffee shop for 5 hours. Idk how she didn't get bored. Anyway.

We hung out a few times, but I was too retarded to push. What made it worse is she kept talking about her ex and how he basically used her, which made me even more hesitant to initiate sex. In hindsight, she wanted it bad. I was dumb and snapchatted her wayyy too often. Reading back my texts make me cringe.

We hung out like 4 times over the course of a month. 3 weeks in she starts withdrawing. 4th week I asked was whats up. She basically gave the whole, "It's not you, it's me" excuse.

But I just found out from my friend that she "didn't find me sexually attractive but likes and loves me as a person".

If's that's true, I must've turned her off by being too beta. Sharing my problems and feelings, too much snapchatting, and saying nice things. But she also kept telling me how much of an amazing person I am. Saying shit like, "WHO ARE YOU <33" and "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE". So I guess I'm still a bit confused?

But I'm over this girl. I would never "date" her but I would hook up if given the chance. However, we're still "friends". More like acquaintances actually. I would cut her off completely, but we both basically share a best friend.

How do I treat her? I never snapchat unless she does and I don't like any of her Instagram posts. She's going to be at our mutual friends graduation party. Do I make conversation with her there, or not really?

I have been working out as well. I've been skinny all my life. I've managed to put on 10 lbs so far and planning another 10 before the party. I low key wanna show her what she missed out on lol.