The only time in my life i remember having genuine confidence is as a kid when i had friends that liked me.

After i got social anxiety obviously that went away and nothing else has improved my confidence it.

I have a very athletic body (max bench prob close to 300lbs and i can deadlift 315lbs without even training legs, bbc genetics). Im 5’11. Deep voice very white straight teeth. Im charismatic and a genius (no lie everyone even my profs say this) and im very funny (again everyone says this). I even get lots of validation from girls.

However, i still dont have friends that fully accept me since im kind of a weird guy. I am completely fine with being weird but others do not which is why i am never fully myself in the presence of others. Ik im weird cus i make pop culture references from like 20 years ago and i listen to completely different songs from others in my area and i like to dress different because this is who i am.

Literally i have all the things that should make me confident on paper but im still not since i dont have any real friends, i feel like however that my confidence should not come from having friends and that there is an underlying issue, thoughts?

I remember when i had friends, i never hesitated to conflict with anyone or say dumb shit cus subconsiously and even consiously i was like. Pfft xy and z like the for who i am idgaf if others dislike me i got friends mf.