Long story short:

  1. Me and this girl got together, were together for around 5 months.
  2. I started to become clingy and shit, bored the fuck out of her
  3. She broke up with me.
  4. About a year later she tries to hit me up for like a month, but me respecting myself, completely ignore her and continue with my life.

After this events, she just blowed up on instagram, uploading extremely good looking pictures and getting lot's of guys attention, and i suddenly miss her. I know the reason i miss her is because i see high value in her, but how the fuck i am not supposed to feel like shes high value when she got 1k followers 80following on instagram she uploads a pic gets 200 likes within an hour with lots of people complimenting her.

I show pictures to mates without telling them anythin and they be like "she hot i'd do her", then i tell them that she is my ex and they are like wow seriously?

About me: I'm 18, I'm not a great looking guy, in fact, i never got girls attention in my life neither was i popular (the only 2 girls i've been with were fine af though, i would never settle for less), so i'm not great looking guy, i think i'm a 5/10, i got this big ass nose and my face just isn't pleasant to watch a little ugly but some random girls find my dorky humour cute apparently, i suck at socializing though.

The only bright aspect i see about myself is i'm 6feet with flat shoes. I just feel like i'd never be with a girl as hot as her, i study software career and there are just penises everywhere, and the 7 girls on the entire prom (no joke) are hideous, really hideous. i'd like to hang around better quality girls, im sure that if my ex see the girls i hang out with she would laugh at my face. I've tried partying but i'm into body building and i dont like alcohol or smoke or eating shit or having bad sleep, i don't like dancing, whole scene just seem so fake and i suck at socializing, so parties are not for me.

I feel like with my software career i'll just meet with geeky guys like me for my entire life and never get a cute girlfriend. The only bright future i see is i become wealthy and well you can get anyone there, but right now, teen years, i feel like they will all go to waste being a looser, cause i'm honestly a loser right now, no social life, not good grades, no girls, i just starting bodybuilding so my skinny fat body is still ugly. Any advice from my fellow red pill members?