Thank you TheRedPill for telling it like it is. You have made me very uncomfortable, and I can lie to myself no longer. I can no longer "accept myself for who I am." As the title says, everything I am is my fault. Sure, there are many influences to point at, but at the end of the day I went along willingly. I was a weak male, barely a boy, never a man.

I am lazy, gluttonous, and have little self-control. I cannot blame my environment or my parents or my lot in life. With what I have been given, I could have produced so much more than I have. Instead, I devoted a great deal of my life to a virtual reality that will never satisfy me.

But enough of that; it's time for me to rise. I know what I have to do, and a lot of it is because of you all. If you find yourself in the same boat as me and feel isolated from the rest of mankind, you'll find solace here.

To any trolls out there, I do not hate women and I do not hate feminists. This subreddit is not about that. Take that shit elsewhere.

One last thing. I want to get in shape. I need to. But I can't afford a gym membership. I own dumb-bells with various weights. Do you guys think that running and lifting dumb-bells will be enough to start with? How often should I do this? Thanks for any advice.