My goodness this is tough guys. Long story short. Wife wasnt fulfilling duties with me or kids. She doesnt really care about these kids only I do and its been that way from birth. I was unfaithful because of the lack of love, effort, compassion for so many years. She found out. Still wanted to work it out. I didnt the love was gone. So I filed. Then all hell broke loose.

Today was our first day handing off the kids. I gave it to her and she showed her ass in front of the kids. Cursing and yelling. I had to tell the kids it will be ok and daddy is always here. Just remain calm in any situation. She is really out to get me out of spite and revenge for serving papers and the unfaithfulness. She wants full custody which doesn't work in Texas but she is so unstable and in IDGAF mode that I am fearing for my life. She has already violated so many court orders which shows me she is in "what do I have to lose" mode and really truly doesn't care anymore about anything.

Guys does this get any better? I know some of you dealt with a vindictive, angry ex wife during the divorce. Did she ever calm down to a rational human being or was it bad for years and years? The one I have has held grudges against people for years so I don't see proper co parenting working with her any time in the future.