Rip into me if you must, but I assure you it’s not necessary lol. I’m fully aware of how much of a dumbass I am.

BACKGROUND:

I’ve been married for 10 years and my wife and I have 3 kids.

I’m part of the LEO community and for those who aren’t aware, it’s a complete fuck fest. Everyone cheats on everyone; people live multiple lives, having spouses and multiple side pieces at the same time.

I’ve stepped outside of my marriage before because of the excitement of something new, and ended up out of my house, away from my kids, and looking at divorce. We worked it out and had been good for 4 years.

CURRENT:

I went to a training course about October 2023 and sat away from everyone and anyone, just wanted to mind my own and get through the 4 weeks. This woman sits next to me on day 3 and starts flirting with me. 2 days later we go out for drinks. She’s married with 5 kids. A week after we start sleeping together.

She tells me she loves me and is divorcing her husband and wants to be with me. My wife smells something funny in the air and says she wants a divorce and I move out.

Around Christmas time I find out this new chick is talking to 4 other dudes. I forgive it because we’re still “new” and she promises to do x, y, and z to prove she loves me.

She goes back on her word and doesn’t do a damn thing. I decide to be patient.

We plan basically our whole lives together - working at the same police department, where we’re going to buy a house, etc. But she won’t divorce her husband nor do what she says she’s gonna do.

I break it off with her mid April.

I went for the new and exciting thing and fucked up my own life. I know.

Now I’m stuck at a department I never wanted to be at, but I’m only there because she was supposed to work there too but she went somewhere else.

I’m out of my home, I don’t see my kids as often.

I asked my soon to be ex wife to repair our marriage but she said no. Rightfully so.

I’m not looking for pity by any means. I’m a fucking dumbass lol.

It just seems like there’s no recovering from these stupid ass mistakes. So if anyone has been in a similarly fucked up situation of their own doing and has been able to come out, let me know what you did.