Things started becoming clear over the past few weeks. At this point I’m really only carrying on for my daughter. She’s 21 and just getting started in life. We’ve always been close, more so as her Mom systematically pushed both of us out of her life. So I’m trying to figure out how to exist in this limbo. There are 1000 things to do right now as I dismantle a 25 year marriage and those things keep me occupied. I can’t say as I have the energy to care about much else. I’ve stopped thinking about tomorrow except as it relates to my to do list. I figure that’s going to take me another year. Wish I could find the fast forward button.