So after months of researching, hemming and hawing, and finally a particularly absurd tantrum, I retained a lawyer last month. My plan was to try some counseling and possibly file in June (also for work/kid’s school reasons.)

Apparently there was a little miscommunication because the lawyer has already filed with the county courthouse. I know this because my STBX got a legal advertisement in the mail from someone looking for her business. (That was a fairly awkward conversation. )

So she’s being pretty nasty these days, ignoring me, snapping at me, not helping with the kids, etc. Which is pretty much par for the course anyway, so no big change there.

I’m alternating between a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach and kind of a weight lifted off my shoulders. I know the hard stuff is yet to come, but I also know that there is an end to the madness in sight.