I've been looking for a lawyers I just got my papers today I don't know what to do I just feel like giving up..and here a quick summary

Safety of my kids because of my wife family is racist have be super racist Towards me to the point where I wanted to not be here and she never wanted to help or tell her family to back off. Her family also called our son the N-word. She’s also trying to use my mental illness against me. I’ve been medicated for a year now and ever since she left three months ago, I haven’t had a symptom That was negative that’s happened to me. I’ve actually been doing better. She’s also saying that I’ve been abusive and that’s not the case when you don’t wanna talk and she’s forced me to talk. If not, she said that my meds don’t work.